Wednesday, October 29, 2008

MOVING WITH THE WORLD

I USED TO BE THAT PERSON WHO MOVED WITH THE WORLD, FOLLOWED WHERE IT TOOK ME. I USED TO BE THAT PERSON WHO LIVED IT AND LOVED IT. BUT NOW IT SEEMS AS IF THE WORLD IS MOVING FASTER WITHOUT ME. I AM AT A STANDSTILL BUT EVERYONE ELSE IS MOVING FORWARD. I CAN'T SEEM TO COMPREHEND HOW IT GOT SO AHEAD OF ME. I LOOK AROUND AT PRESENT AND PAST PEOPLE IN MY LIFE MOVING FORWARD, SUCCEEDING, LIVING SUCH HAPPY LIVES. I NEVER USED TO BE THAT PERSON THAT COMPARED MYSELF TO ANYONE OR COMPARED MY ACHIEVEMENTS TO ANYONE ELSE'S, BUT LATELY THATS ALL I'VE BEEN FEELING. I'M WATCHING EVERYONE WALK BY ME SURPASS ME AND I GO TO TAKE THOSE STEPS AND CANT MOVE. ITS LIKE MY LEGS ARE PARALYZED LIKE I FORGOT HOW TO WALK. LIKE A CHILD WHO CAN CRAWL BUT HAS NOT YET LEARNED THAT WALKING WILL GET THEM FURTHER. ALL I WANT IS TO FIND MY LEGS AGAIN TO GET UP OFF THE GROUND AND START WALKING TO THE PATH I WAS ONCE ON. I JUST WANT TO HOLD MY HEAD UP AND FEEL LIKE I USED TO. I'M NOT SAYING THAT I WOULD CHANGE ANYTHING I'VE DONE, ITS JUST I WOULD HAVE KEPT UP WITH THE MOVEMENT OF MY WORLD.

2 comments:

Nellz said...

babygirl everybody gets to a point like that in they live...it sucks ..yes i know that but its about changes and how it affects you. you have been through alot and that is why you are not upbeat with the movement of the world...like i said in my blog..change in the rhythm of living and think to the beat....love u and god bless...

Super Woman said...

like nellz said we all get to that point in our lives your just getting there now.
I've been there, but you dont get there until you been reaall reaalll low and experience something really negative in your life

so obviously you just went through or are still going through something

I did too, been through abuse and mental abuse from dudes and now that its over and i purged them from my life im stronger.

Another Quote for you

"Weeping may only endure through the night, but JOY comes in the morning"

you'll be iight soon

Much Love